Realizing everyone's worst fear (or hope for the villains), the news of Hae Gang's death brings Jin Eon to his knees and almost destroys him as he mourns.
Knowing full well that she has lost Jin Eon the moment he finds out about his wife's death, Hae Gang doesn't react when Seol Ri dumps a bucket of wet kitchen scraps on her. Stoically, Hae Gang tells Seol Ri "I am already standing at the edge of the cliff. You might as well push me off. Maybe this way it will finally stop me."
Unfortunately for Yong Gi, when she finally wakes up in the emergency room her luggage is no where to be found. Understandably upset since the luggage had all of her savings, Yong Gi has no choice but to latch herself to Kyu Seok with the excuse that he is the biggest suspect since her luggage went missing from his office. Despite his usual manner of "your problems are not mine", Kyu Seok nonetheless finds himself softening under Eun Sol's (Yong Gi's daughter) pitiful eyes and actually takes the mother and daughter back to their old house.
Not reacting to Hae Gang's pleading, Jin Eon walks past her numbly and ends up in front of his old house. Clutching her chest in pain as she watches Jin Eon pitifully calls out his wife's name again and again, Hae Gang cries silently.
Perhaps finally moved by Hae Gang's determination, Jin Eon tells her "Thank you. And I am sorry for what I have done. For being disrespectful, for doing whatever I wanted, for making things difficult for you... and for confusing you. I am sorry. Miss Dok Go Yong Gi. I'll go home. And you should go home to your family too. Go home to the person that is like a light house to you." Boy, whenever Jin Eon calls Hae Gang "Dok Go Yong Gi" is like a reminder to both of them that she is not the woman he loves.
Apparently not sleeping at all, Jin Eon opens his eyes after the door closes.
Already suspicious that Hae Gang's death might be tied to Dok Go Yong Gi and her deceased husband, Jin Eon starts to wonder if Tae Seok or even his own father might have a hand in his wife's death.
Baek Seok gets a surprised phone call from his high school teacher and is stunned that Yong Gi's mother is desperately searching for her. Feeling unsettled since Yong Gi's parents had both supposedly passed away when she was young, Baek Seok calls the number his teacher had given him and becomes even more confused when Mama Do tells him that she has already fond Yong Gi and her granddaughter so she doesn't need Baek Seok's help anymore.
Showing up at Mama Do's house, Baek Seok is astonished when he finds out from Mama Do that Hae Gang and Yong Gi are twins that were separated when she and their father divorced. (So Mama Do had Hae Gang who was the older one of the twin while Yong Gi went with their father.)
Horrified to confirm that Hae Gang really is not Yong Gi, Baek Seok holds his head in desperation as he remembers Hae Gang's words about how hard she tries to live up to his image of Yong Gi.
I Have A Lover Episode 20
Warming up to Yong Gi after their bout of searching for Eun Sol together, Baek Seok is shocked when Yong Gi tells him that she has been hiding in China to avoid the men who killed her husband. He thought Yong Gi's husband had committed suicide
Brightly asking Baek Seok if he has a girl that he is dating, Yong Gi is dismayed when Baek Seok replies "There is a woman I want to marry... but she is someone else's wife."
Listening with mounting confusion as Jin Eon tells him that he has found Yong Gi's wallet in Hae Gang's belongings, Baek Seok couldn't understand how the two sisters could have been together on the day Hae Gang "died". Unable to bring himself to tell Jin Eon the truth even as Jin Eon confesses "I need to know how my wife died. Why Dok Go Yong Gi's stuff was with my wife's belongings. Why in my eyes those two are still the same person. Why when all the circumstances and everyone tells me no, in my eyes she looks like her, so I am afraid to even look at her." Wanting to a avoid Jin Eon's talk about finding out the truth, Baek Seok stands up and excuses himself because Hae Gang is waiting for him.
Before Baek Seok can leave though, Jin Eon's phone rings and Baek Seok walks numbly away knowing that Hae Gang has just called the man who she really has been waiting for.
I love that Jin Eon always have this look of contentment when he closes his eyes around Hae Gang like "Finally! She is here so I can rest now."
In case you were wondering where Baek Seok went off to since he never went back to the office, we find Baek Seok in Hae Gang's bedroom as he pats an imaginary sleeping Hae Gang while saying "Forget everything. Just forget everything and sleep."
However, Hae Gang's voice stops Jin Eon in his track as she answers his previous question "Because I am afraid. I cried because I am afraid. I am afraid I might fall in love with you. I am afraid I might already be in love with you. I am afraid of you."
Now I don't see how he could've possibly think this was a good time to ask this question ... Looking at Hae Gang with hope, Jin Eon asks "I am hoping you will recover your memory. Do you want to find it together with me?" Accepting Hae Gang's silence as her refusal, Jin Eon leaves.
Admitting freely that he had mistakenly thought that he could start a new life if he leaves Hae Gang, Jin Eon tells Seol Ri "I have finally realized what I want and what I can't let go. I want to be by my wife's side. I want to be by Hae Gang's side. Even if it's now. Even if it's like this. I don't want to let go of her. I can't seem to let her go. I am sorry. I am sorry Kang Seol Ri."
Remembering back to the conversation he heard between Seol Ri and his brother in law, it suddenly dawns on Jin Eon that Tae Seok wouldn't be searching high and low for a dead person.
With shaking hands, Jin Eon opens the urn that supposedly contains Hae Gang's ashes and let's out the breath he has been holding when the urn turns out to be empty. Whew! Tae Seok had ordered his minion to find a body to cremate but they must haven't had the time to do it yet.
We end episode 20 as Jin Eon is still shaking with relief from the hope that his wife is still alive and Hae Gang walks into his office at that exact moment.
Whew! What a ride. Although I have just realized one tiny... okay gigantic problem I have at this point: We still have 30 episodes more to go!!!! I Have A Lover has certainly been one thrilling ride up this point but why do I feel like I am about ready for it to end?
Not that I don't enjoy the pain I get just from suffering along with our hero (and that melty feeling I get whenever he looks at Hae Gang with "those" sad eyes) but I am ready for the villain to get their justice and Hae Gang to regain her memory.
Of course strictly speaking we really do have a whole lot of material we still have to cover despite the fast pace everyone seems to be uncovering secrets left and right.
- The two sisters needs to meet.
- Madam Choi's dementia.
- Hae Gang needs to recover her memory and with it the guilt over her daughter's death.
- Poor Baek Seok to get his happy ending with someone! Anyone?!
- Kyu Seok to fall in love with Yong Gi.
- Seol Ri to just leave the country.
- Anyone else getting the feeling we might lose President Choi?
- Our two leads will need to figure out where they stand once Hae Gang recovers her memory and see if they still want to give it a go.
Sigh! So I guess we still have a ton to cover. By the way, I did shorter recap this week (so I don't run out of steam for the next 30 episodes) but here are some of the things I left out during the recap:
- Seol Ri finds out about Madam Choi's dementia and convinces her to go see the doctor with her.
- Daddy Baek is stunned when Seol Ri asks him to kick Hae Gang out for betraying her brother. Showing up at Hae Gang's office with breakfast, Daddy Baek tells Hae Gang that he trusts her and asks her to turn back since going any further will just hurt herself and his son.
- Tae Seok is plotting to kick Jin Eon out of the company by framing him with embezzlement. For Taek Seok's plan to work, he needs Jin Eon to carry on his research project with Kyu Seok. Kyu Seok had turn Jin Eon's suggestion of funding his research down, so Taek Seok is trying to convince his brother to accept Jin Eon's offer.